a journal of my days,,

Tuesday, 4 December 2018

see you all soon!!



As Christmas comes speeding towards us at the speed of light I would like to take this opportunity to thank you all for your lovely words,

your comments are so kind and I wish I could respond to each and everyone but truth be told its all I can do to put a post up and as I have said before I would much rather read all of your wonderful posts than bore you with nonsensical blabber that comes from this mushy brain of mine.
The tree is up and the decorations created, house smells of oranges cinnamon star anise and balsam.
My fingers are punctured well and good by the many missed pin pricks of threading cranberries and popcorn. Blood was shed, but wounds will heal, it was worth it.
Some have asked about my eye sight ,well I still have partial vision in my left eye, central, its a bit like looking through a spy glass, its clear but limited. I fell from a quite a height and received a brain trauma.
I also was injured internally and when surgery was performed to repair the internal injuries my injured brain became swollen increasing the damages from the fall.
It could not be helped.
As the scar tissue on my brain grows  its making the circle of vision smaller, I have very little peripheral vision left now,  it took five years for my right eye to lose all its sight but my left eye is slower.
The scar tissue from the brain injury is tugging on different areas of my brain as it grows, it causes speech problems, memory problems, word sequencing problems and blindness, it has effected my histamine response and respiratory problems.
But I'm still alive and kicking so that is that.
I stutter if I'm tired or stressed but most times I can control it by changing words .
Often I will use the wrong word in conversation, the files in my file cabinets of my brain were all dumped out and mixed up, so one never knows what may come out.

But I am healthy and happy, I have three wonderful children, three amazing grand children and a husband that I would give my life for.
I have much to be thankful for.


Until the day comes I can see no more and darkness covers my world I will keep threading my cranberries, threading my dried oranges,  making the ginger bread houses and all the rest of the things we do at Christmas.
I will continue to puddle with my water colors, dipping my brush in the water saved from yesterday that holds the magic of many thoughts and creations yet to become. 
I will bake our bread and enjoy the feeling of the lovely soft dough as I knead it and  bake it , filling our home with its tempting aroma.

Life is good.
I thank you all again for your kind words and I will try to visit often but I'm taking a break for a while to enjoy this mad crazy time.

I have to keep pushing this scrooge of a husband of mine up the happiness scale everyday, he tries  so hard to pretend he hates all the pomp and circumstance of the holidays but I know he loves every minute of it.
What would he ever do without me!
See you all in the New Year!



29 comments:

justjill said...

With you all the way in your battles mine are similar and I try and have the same attitude. Have a lovely Christmas. Be with you again in 2019.xxx

Kathy said...

I have different health battles, but like you try to be positive all the time. Sometimes it's hard. I so admire you. Enjoy your break and look forward to chatting with you again in a few weeks. Everything in your house looks lovely.

krishna said...

Oh dear! a big hug for you. You have huge strength. You are doing so many things!! I always love to read your tidbits.
XOXO

Debra She Who Seeks said...

You inspire me, Laurie, with your loving and positive attitude! Have a wonderful Christmas and New Year's, you two!

Chatty Crone said...

I have a girlfriend that the same thing has happened to and she is slowly losing her site. It is unbelievable what can happen.

I feel so bad for both of you - my heart hurts. That has to be so hard.

I understand that you need a rest and Christmas is always a good time to do it so that you can think of what is important.

God bless. Merry Christmas and see you in 2019!

Love, sandie

Magic Love Crow said...

Love you Laurie! Big Hugs to the entire family! Your decorations are wonderful! I can smell the oranges, cinnamon and star anise! Keep being you! You are a wonderful, caring soul! Extra hugs to you and your hubby! Have an AMAZING Christmas and we will be talking to you in 2019!!!!!

Should Fish More said...

You are an example and model for us all. Happy Holidays!
Mike

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

I'm wishing you a Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year! I'll miss you! Have FUN my friend and enjoy spending time with your family! Holiday hugs!

Elephant's Child said...

I am pretty certain I speak for us all when I say I love your posts and look forward to reading them.
I hope your holidays are filled with love, laughter and joy.

Jeanie said...

I love that you are happy, healthy and living your life and most of all REALIZING that there is so much good in your world. You are an inspiration. We all have stuff that gets us down or hampers our abilities, and some more than others. But it's what we do with it, how we live our lives that makes the difference between joy and misery. I see joy here. I see it in your gorgeous tree (I love the strung fruit and berries) and I hear it in your words.

Wishing you the most beautiful of Christmas holidays this year and always.

Lowcarb team member said...

Love you and love your blog!
You are amazing …
Wishing you, your husband and family a wonderful Christmas Season, and look forward to more blogging in the New Year.

My good wishes

All the best Jan

TheAwakenedSoul said...

Happy Holidays and enjoy your break. Your decorations look lovely. It sounds like they smell delicious, too.

Susan Heather said...

Have the wonderful Christmas that you so deserve.

Christine said...

Happy Christmas to you and your lovely family Laurie, I love your uplifting attitude!

Red said...

Powerful post to talk about your health problems. You explain things very well.

William Kendall said...

Bless you, Laurie. Merry Christmas.

Prims By The Water said...

I struggle with diabetes, but I hope all is well with you. I pray that your sight will stay. Janice

Catalyst said...

You're a brave one, my friend. Have a wonderful holiday season with the Grinch! :^D

Terri D said...

See you when you return! Blessings to you and yours!

Lorrie said...

Oh Laurie, you are an inspiration to all who read your words. I pray that the loss of sight will be very, very slow. May the love, joy, peace, and hope promised by the Christ Child fill your hearts and lives this Christmas. Hugs from a west coast island.

Holly said...

Sending love & light, you are a rockstar. Your post warmed my heart and I'm now going to carry the coziness throughout the day.

Adam said...

Have a good Christmas

BeachGypsy said...

You may have been injured and have some losses, but YOU ARE STILL YOU INSIDE and it shines loud and clear in your posts and your photographs and your creativity!!! I so enjoy coming here to see what you have for us each time, it's always something pretty or interesting or enjoyable. Hope you enjoy your break....will miss you but you just come back when you feel ready!! We will be here!

Beatrice P. Boyd said...

Enjoy the holiday time with your family, Laurie, for spending time together is the most important thing anyone can do. I so admire your spirit despite your injury and you are definitely an inspiration. I hope you enjoy a timeless Christmas filled with joy, love, happiness and memories to last through the coming year. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and yours and enjoy your break.

baili said...

My dear and very special Laurie I AM SOOOOO PROUD OF YOU FOR THIS UNDEFEATABLE COURAGE AND STRENGTH YOU HAVE WITHIN YOU!!!

I BET THERE ARE MANY WHO CANNOT love and appreciate life though they have no health issues.
This is such grace of God that he blessed you with positive attitude my friend which help to come out as winner from all tough situations.
Stay blessed dear and enjoy your family gathering on Christmas!

Linda said...

Love you Laurie♥️
Merriest Christmas to you and your beloved family...
Cheers!🥂
Linda :o)

Rain said...

Laurie, you're so sweet. Thank you for sharing your thoughts in this post. I wish you all the best! xxx If we don't connect, I'd like to wish you the merriest of Christmas and a happy new year!!! xx

tammy j said...

bless you darling girl. have a wonderful holiday with your beloved family
and that fake Sweet Grinch! xoxo

Terra said...

I admire your artistic ability and above all your can do attitude. Christmas blessings to you today and all year.