As Christmas comes speeding towards us at the speed of light I would like to take this opportunity to thank you all for your lovely words,
your comments are so kind and I wish I could respond to each and everyone but truth be told its all I can do to put a post up and as I have said before I would much rather read all of your wonderful posts than bore you with nonsensical blabber that comes from this mushy brain of mine.
The tree is up and the decorations created, house smells of oranges cinnamon star anise and balsam.
My fingers are punctured well and good by the many missed pin pricks of threading cranberries and popcorn. Blood was shed, but wounds will heal, it was worth it.
Some have asked about my eye sight ,well I still have partial vision in my left eye, central, its a bit like looking through a spy glass, its clear but limited. I fell from a quite a height and received a brain trauma.
I also was injured internally and when surgery was performed to repair the internal injuries my injured brain became swollen increasing the damages from the fall.
It could not be helped.
As the scar tissue on my brain grows its making the circle of vision smaller, I have very little peripheral vision left now, it took five years for my right eye to lose all its sight but my left eye is slower.
The scar tissue from the brain injury is tugging on different areas of my brain as it grows, it causes speech problems, memory problems, word sequencing problems and blindness, it has effected my histamine response and respiratory problems.
But I'm still alive and kicking so that is that.
I stutter if I'm tired or stressed but most times I can control it by changing words .
Often I will use the wrong word in conversation, the files in my file cabinets of my brain were all dumped out and mixed up, so one never knows what may come out.
But I am healthy and happy, I have three wonderful children, three amazing grand children and a husband that I would give my life for.
I have much to be thankful for.
Until the day comes I can see no more and darkness covers my world I will keep threading my cranberries, threading my dried oranges, making the ginger bread houses and all the rest of the things we do at Christmas.
I will continue to puddle with my water colors, dipping my brush in the water saved from yesterday that holds the magic of many thoughts and creations yet to become.
I will bake our bread and enjoy the feeling of the lovely soft dough as I knead it and bake it , filling our home with its tempting aroma.
Life is good.
I thank you all again for your kind words and I will try to visit often but I'm taking a break for a while to enjoy this mad crazy time.
I have to keep pushing this scrooge of a husband of mine up the happiness scale everyday, he tries so hard to pretend he hates all the pomp and circumstance of the holidays but I know he loves every minute of it.
What would he ever do without me!
See you all in the New Year!